He'll be.

I wrote this a couple months ago and planned on copying it to this blog but never got around to it. Considering recent events, reading it over is kind of amusing.

"He'll be quiet. Not like a silent being, but in his nature. He'll be peaceful, but never boring. I'll constantly be getting lost in his eyes, a brilliant blue or green. He'll be a gentle soul, but still will be able to stand his ground when needed. He'll make me laugh and love to cuddle. He won't care that I'm such a nerd, he might even love that about me, or be just as much of a geek. He'll respect my beliefs and morals, better yet have close to the same ones. He'll take care of me, even when I insist I'm independent, or just fine. He'll have a good taste in music. He'll know me better than I know myself. He'll love dogs. He'll love my flaws especially when I'm feeling under-confident. He'll hold my hand every chance I get."

In the clouds.

So earlier tonight, I stopped to think for a second, and really wondered when the last time was when I was as happy as I am right now. I couldn't really remember. I could not for the life of me think of any time before where a simple text message would make me absolutely giddy and simple things made me want to sing out loud. I could not think of another time where I was 100% alright with every single thing I was doing in my life. Where I didn't feel guilt for certain things, frustrated about others, etc.

And I say all of this in absolute honesty. I've said before that I'm a worrier. But right now, even though I could think of a few things that are going wrong at this point in time, I don't feel overwhelmed.

I can't help but wonder, what makes this time so much different? As many times as this has happened to me before, why am I absolutely in the clouds? I can't concentrate on anything, songs put me in a dream, I don't get bothered by anything anymore.

And nothing has really happened yet.

"I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes."

Silly.

A while back in my life if someone had an idea opposite of mine about something, I would instantly question my own siding and maybe even think my way to paranoia eventually changing my mind.

I didn't even consider changing my mind today even with all of the questionable looks I got.
I'm actually really hoping to prove them wrong.

I'm surprising myself.
He's surprising me too. Every day.