Clubs and running.

Not being in band makes me feel the absolute urgent need to become part of a club. Any sort of club that might fit my interests, a photography club, a christian club, a music club, a blogging club, whatever. So you can imagine how absolutely ecstatic I am about the club fair I will be attending later today. I'm really hoping that it's not a blowout and that there are really some decent clubs to be had at my school. And I fully intend on signing up for something, unless there are absolute no clubs that would hold my interests whatsoever. I need to not sign up for any leadership positions for anything though. That would not be a good thing right now.

It's weird how lonely not being in an organization of some sort can make you. Don't get me wrong I have lovely friends outside of organizations that I do enjoy being around and spending time with. But I've found it's much harder to spend time with your friends when you don't have to be around them for some sort of meeting or practice or trip or something. I made most of my friends through band. We had to go to school and class and practices together and through all of that time we bonded and became great friends. Other friends I lived with. I'm not sure I really have friends that I've just met by chance somewhere, exchanged contact information and worked to make a friendship. Weird. It's good that I can at least keep some of the friends I've made through band or dorms even though I'm not in those environments anymore.



I planned on getting up semi early tomorrow and going for a run. It's 1 am right now, so I'm not really sure that's going to happen anymore. I need to start training with my running if I ever plan on getting any good at it. Right now I'm not good at it at all. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off. Meh. I really do hate running. It makes me feel sick to my stomach and makes my lungs feel like they're going to explode. It's not a very pleasant feeling for me. But I want to learn how to run well so that those things don't happen anymore when I run and then maybe I won't hate it so much anymore and then running just won't be a big deal for me anymore. Heck, maybe I'll enjoy it. Maybe I'll still get up just a little earlier so I can start. We'll see how that goes for me.

Maybe I need to join a running club.

Random catching up.

I should have gone to Pima first.

Seriously I think I'm going to love school this year. So far all of my professors have been great, all my classes seem at least a little fun (even my math class doesn't seem to be too bad and I HATE math.) I'm getting a ton of positive energy being there, which I never got really at the U of A. Maybe that was just me and how my personality works, but I definitely know that right now Pima is the right place for me. I feel like my goal of getting a 4.0 is actually possible. And I'm not just another number here. The professors actually care about why we're here and what we want out of our education at that school. It's pretty amazing.

I think I've decided that four dogs is a good number to have. I want four boxers when I've settled down and have a job (oh, you know maybe a husband, I don't know yet.) Surprisingly enough, they seem like enough company in general. But my poor puppy at home is all lonely while I'm dogsitting :( I think I'll take him to the dog park some day next week as a treat for this week being all lonesome.

The monsoon was procrastinating I think. Now it's rushing to get all of it's work done before it's too late. I love it :) I could live with having this type of weather all the time I think. If I wanted sun I could go to a beach somewhere and be content and then be able to leave the heat whenever... That's why I'm moving to Colorado the first chance I get. I think I've been in Tucson long enough. Bah. It's starting to rain a bit while I type this :)

Cymbals or vibes?

Let Love Not Weigh Me Down.

I hate the way this feels.
Here are some lyrics to try to explain.
Although they don't even start to explain.
Meh.

 

 

"Let love not weigh me down
Let the cursed air be clean
When you've lost faith in the human race
Let love not weigh me down

Let love not cause me pain
Let it all seem like a dream
And I won't regret what I can't forget
Let love not cause you pain

So let your beauty blind my vision
Let it move me 'til I die
And the seeds of despair won't be fruits that I bear
Let the beauty blind my vision

So shed all the tears that you want
Run from the places you haunt
If you think you're lost
Or just double-crossed
Don't try to make sense of it all
Let the music and words take you back
To the times when your heart wasn't cracked
We won't be suffering with drugs and bad medicine
We'll drink 'til the curtain calls

Let love not weigh me down
Let its weakness be my guide
And all this intensity makes perfect sense to me
Let love not weigh you down

So shed all the tears that you want
Run from the places you haunt
If you think you're lost
Or just double-crossed
Don't try to make sense of it all
Let the music and words take you back
To the times when your heart wasn't cracked
We won't be suffering with drugs and bad medicine
We'll drink 'til the curtain calls"