I'm attempting to write another book. It seems like every time I try to write a story, it gets all jumbled up, I get lost in my own thoughts and then give up. So this time, I've decided to write one based on something that is occurring right now in my own life. I feel like I can use it as an outlet to the feelings that are building up inside me know that I'll never really get to express otherwise. It's a complicated thing, but if it's successful, it will be well worth it.
I think that's one of the hardest things to deal with, having such prominent feelings about something, but having no way to, or being unable to let them out. Knowing that it would be far to dangerous to do so, and desperately trying to suppress them instead. It's definitely not the way things should be, but in this situation, there really is no other way to handle it.
I'm guessing that only a few people will actually read my story if I ever get it finished, and I doubt that it will be any good otherwise. If the writing talent fairy blesses me with this "book" and it's beyond amazing, somehow lands on the shelves... you'll never know that it's mine.
I'll leave it at that.
